Saturday, November 28, 2009

Clarity beats serenity.





Threee sweet & sad songs which are currently on replay mode.

They sent shivers down my spine. Im feeling better. (:

Its gnna be unbearably hard for a long time to come.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Wedding Dress.

Had work with Zt yesterday, & truthfully working with her made things alot easier and comfortable and enjoyable for me :)
After the last time I gave the wrong change, I decided I couldnt risk it anymore, and yes, ve been using the calculator for the smallest of change :>
I told Zt smth Ive kept inside for a really really long time, and instead of feeling better I felt even worse. But I know my words are safe with her.
I know Im in no position to feel like this, but I cant help myself either.
I think about it 24/7 & I feel worse every time.
Should have stopped myself when I could but I never knew things would turn out this way.
What should I do now?

Got a busy week ahead, and Im hoping that as time passes it'll all blow over.
Gotta go to th home this friday and see what I can do.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

My longest.

After reading that post, I cant breathe.
Mine's been way longer but I know - deserves it.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

My hazard lights are flashing.

And you asked me what I want this year
and I try to make this kind and clear
just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
'cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
and designer love and empty things
just a chance that maybe we'll find better days.

I need some place simple where we could live
and something only you can give
and that's faith and trust and peace while we're alive
and the one poor child who saved this world
and there's ten million more who probably could
if we all just stopped and said a prayer for them.

-

Caught 500 days of summer with yt and i loved it :>
Im still thinking bout it. Dont Summer remind you of Katy Perry? :)
Exams are over and im gonna go hunt for a job and sign up for classes.
Things that appealed to me before dont now anymore.
Im gonna do my best to be the best daughter, grandaughter, cousin, sister, and friend I can possibly be.
Good news is that ill still be going to Australia though I flunked amath rlly badly this time. :)
yay! so i gotta save lotsa $ now so i can get stuffs for my loved ones.
Bad news is that im now sick and i know im gonna take a super long time to recover as always and worse still, the medicine makes me feel lethargic all th time.
aah. such a downer.
Today's plans for east coast were cancelled cuz of bad weather & attendance. ):
sigh & ive got all the ingredients ready alre.
town with yt for Fame later, gotta go get ready. :)
Ill end here.

All American Rejects - Dance Inside.