Reckless.

When you ask for help, some friends tell you they have no idea & to figure it out yourself. Some other friends figure it out for you, without you having to ask them for help. I just realised, I have both such friends.

So far away.

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance

Cause with you,
I withstand
All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all
I'd give it for us

Love this song.

There's a single-wide trailer past the railroad tracks
Old car in the front, weeds in the back
Mama had there when she was sixteen years old
Took one look at her and named her Rose

Fragile little Rose had to grow up fast
Between the habit and the job that her mama had
I've never seen a situation half that bad

She's a blossom in the dust
All her colors covered up
Give a rose a little rain
Lots of sun and all your love
And watch her blossom in the dust

We rescued that child in the nick of time
Found a real nice couple 'cross the county line
Who'd been trying to have a little girl of their own
And would give anything to give little Rose a home

That mama-to-be took one look at her
In her tattered flowered dress and her tangled curls
She said that's not just any girl

She's a blossom in the dust
All her colors covered up
Give a rose a little rain
Lots of sun and all your love
And watch her blossom in the dust

Oh, sometimes the only way to overcome a circumstance
Is someone giving someone else a fighting chance

She's a blossom in the dust
All her colors covered up
Give a rose a little rain
Lots of sun and all your love
And watch her blossom in the dust

Ask and you shall receive.

Its christmas eve tmrw, and also my last day of work for this holiday (:
Im gonna miss work though, especially night shifts with w.p ):
Im gonna miss tv mobile on the bus too, cuz Stars For A Cause is always played when I get on th 10.20 bus ):
Oh correction, its 1.04am now which makes today officially chrismas eve!
W.p is gonna cook dinner for me tomorrow, im so happy (:
And I have spent my all of my pay in 2hours!
I cant think of a more meaningful way to spend my first pay (:
I was jumping around in the shop cuz I was sooo excited to see the look on their faces, the salesman even laughed at me (:
had tuition today, then dropped by hy, and was slightly late for work.
Sick girl, get better soon okay? Dont think of me until you fall sick! (:
gonna sleep now, goooood morning

(:

Clear up.

This space is so dead, I know (:
This has been the busiest holiday so far too, and its tiring me out.
I feel like a cloth being squeezed dry.
Had tuition today, and although its thrice a week,
its okay cuz Catherine makes me smileee (:
Met Tim for the first time today and I love him (: x1000
And I now smell like him, which is a good thing cuz he smells goooood. Hahahhaaha
Turned out that he'd been kept inside all along cuz Cat thought I was afraid of dogs.
WHAT. Hahahahaa (:
Now he can run around! (:
Tim reminded me of the schnauzer I sent to spca, so sad. These owners are horrrible.
Met up with Jer today, and we brought back good old memories I miss dearly. (:
Decided to accompany daddy for dinner at T1 today, else he'd be alone til his appointment.
I asked him what he would do if I wasn't there,
and he said simply, "then Ill just eat by myself lah,".
): I think its sad to eat alone.
Sometimes somebody else's joy can easily fill me up, but eating alone...
Just realised next week's gonna be just as packed as this one ):
Im missing Zt at work, time passes faster when she's here ):

Bye guys, love.

Clarity beats serenity.

Threee sweet & sad songs which are currently on replay mode.

They sent shivers down my spine. Im feeling better. (:

Its gnna be unbearably hard for a long time to come.

Wedding Dress.

Had work with Zt yesterday, & truthfully working with her made things alot easier and comfortable and enjoyable for me :)
After the last time I gave the wrong change, I decided I couldnt risk it anymore, and yes, ve been using the calculator for the smallest of change :>
I told Zt smth Ive kept inside for a really really long time, and instead of feeling better I felt even worse. But I know my words are safe with her.
I know Im in no position to feel like this, but I cant help myself either.
I think about it 24/7 & I feel worse every time.
Should have stopped myself when I could but I never knew things would turn out this way.
What should I do now?

Got a busy week ahead, and Im hoping that as time passes it'll all blow over.
Gotta go to th home this friday and see what I can do.